What do you do when you need a support network, but don’t have one? What do you do when the organization that was supposed to help you with getting settled in, in a country where English is not the first language is not pulling their weight and then blames you for needing help? What if the organization you work for has a history of doing this? What if people in position of power have spouses from the country or if they generally don’t do overseas hires so they don’t understand or care? What if you were put in a position of being made anxious by your coworkers because you were told by a boss about what, “people were saying”? What if said boss was tearing you down by his approach towards communicating with you, this at a time when you’re especially vulnerable?
Then ultimately…what if you were made to feel like you had to shoulder the blame and then were ultimately not renewed, all when you were incredibly sick and didn’t have a support network? Then what if you were denied references that you were told you would get? Made to feel that one misstep would ruin your career? Made to feel that when things are already difficult enough because you have to explain away why you were/are leaving after only one year to potential future employers? Were made to feel like you had to confide in SOMEONE so you decided to post it all in a very vague way on your not super popular or widely read book blog but you STILL worried about doing it?
I won’t get into the whos and hows and whys, because obviously I need to protect myself, but this has been my situation since shortly after I moved to Japan. Of course things can always be worse, but having taught in 3 other countries previously I can honestly say I’ve never been in a situation like this. Most recently I developed two bald spots for the first time in my life, which are likely related to the stress of all this. I’m emotionally tired. I’m searching for another job and at the end of the day if I don’t post as often as I like, this is the reason why.
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